sorrow

为什么自己这样脆弱？努力说服自己让别人来疼，心里却只想着那个他。卡在喉咙的那份悲哀，真让人透不过气。真想死了算了。

pain

复杂。爱与恨只在一念之间
六年，该变的都变了
却不想对爱认输
有谁能听到
那心碎的
声音

love is simple

很爱他，想珍惜他，却爱莫能助。努力地告诉自己不可以爱，却越努力越心疼对他的伤害。爱简单吗？

between choices

within my desire to dream, i do hope we have our own freedom. but yet with the hidden feeling, i hope you could stay for me. our promises made of all, i do hope we could be together with freedom and desire. Laughter to lift our dreams, and Love to enables this flight. the journey of ours. realize our dreams, be closely hold on, instead of giving up either part, can we keep our promise forever? while we're having our desire to gain freedom.

:(

say, you're the only one. nay, it never works that way. did you ever realise that you're everything that i thought you never were. upon all the hurts, hopeless and tonguetied, yet I still love you dearly. theres no reason for love. hating you, yet still you're the only one i love to not forget. the desire towards you never seems to lessen. there're times when i hate you because i cant erase the time you put me in tears. but it pains me when i say i hate you. deceiving myself. i know i would be there at the end of the day. how about you? would you stay with me till the end? please hold my hands. i beg you. this is how much i love you. it never dies. hatred lose. always. be without you. no. i dont want to play that part.

yay

woohoo im back! not that im free out here, im freaking tensed doing my assssssssssssssss now. especially that crappy titas. shoot, a 30 pages report just to write about islamic civilisation? oh come on i have spent the whole afternoon working on this shit and so far only 2 pages done. not even 10% of it /.\ someone help meeeeeeee pleaseeeeeeeee. whatever it is, back to basics, about the re-opening of this blog. i know its stupid as i have shut down, reopen, shut down, reopen it over and over again, nah but its an issue no more. guess nobody will visit it anyway -,- just want to turn this dud blog into a sweet journal of me and ma hubby love story awwwwwwwwwww *i can see ma si rabbit banging her head on the table laughing her ass off now* fine. i know its lame, so what? its my freedom anyway and according to xxx (2010), in order to survive your long distance relationship, you must never take the relationship lightly. always capture some interesting moment of yours by exchanging photos, video clips and as well as audio recording, keep your hubby or hunny informed on what has happen in your life despite the physical distance, eliminate your wait-and-see attitude, succumb all negative comments on LDR, blah blah blah -___________- and now im taking all those advice. hubby gonna work with me too. right right hubby? i know you're reading teehee C:

but in fact you;re not (25-1-2011)

sweet

finally, its the last day of my March holiday. though its just a short holiday, but i had a great time with chongyi ♥ 4 days 3 nights *woots*. the excitement still hasnt gone wakaka we went shopping, shopping and shopping. i din get to go to genting with him and thats the sad part of it. besides, had been planning to watch alice and he got so excited when hes making online reservation,but it ended up with disappointment just because the stupid credit card has been locked, i entered the wrong pin. grrr :C anyway we did enjoy. and you know what, my chongyi... hes such a cute boy, my super cute boy *awwww* that i could hardly take my eyes off the ball. it made me laugh my ass off when he was complaining about me woke up earlier in the morning and asked him if i could play facebook while all he wanted was cuddling me and continue his sweet dream lol im sorry dear im facebook-addicted. and guess what, he bought me a watch but hubby i want ringsssssssss :C

i love you very much dear ♥